reminiscing on my life

cannot sleep...all because i kept thinking about why i made the decision i made. why??? I have few regrets in my life..the biggest was about my ex..Ina..she change me completely, I became totally the opposite of what i imagine i will become.. however, fate brings me together with my gf, Farah. Probably I need to meet Ina before i can meet Farah which is what i fantasize/imagine and want as a gf. her character and personality really makes me questioned, why i can be with Ina for that 3 hell years instead with someone like Farah.

I feel i have wasted the 3 years of my life...fuck.

But, i have to look on the future and forget the past but at the same time learn from the past. Ive learned that you must follow your heart when some decision is hard to make. Logic play a part as well but when its about love, logic is second.

I can explain, with Ina, I realised that she cant be the one. I just knew it. But because I followed my logic that I need to continue this hell hole relationship mainly because i have been with her for 3 years, I suffered as a consequences.

huh.. thankfully, i have found my right one. And my heart/gut tells me that Farah is the one. without a doubt.

hopefully she is the one. insya Allah.

My Summer - Part 2

Wassup..

im a bit lazy right now...just gonna put some pics for you guys to look at..

Yeah, I have a lot of fun in summer. Doing stuff that I enjoyed with great company. Its weird when you have so much fun and suddenly all that fun disappeared and you've realized that you have works to do. Works that if you serious with it will turn out to be fun as well..but you have to be serious with it, indulge it, feel it, sense it.. then you will sure going to enjoy doing your work. What the hell im saying here? haha..

i never expected that im going to have this much fun in summer. THANK god Farah came here and also Pak andak's family as well in keeping me company in this summer. I think this summer will be balanced with fun and work. Work = research while fun = playing games, soccer etc.

huh..so lazy to write...ok lah..till then..ciow

btw, enjoy the pics